billicious (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} billicious) wrote,@ 2010-01-02 17:21:00 |
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Year End Update
- now a day late and a dollar short!
2009... oh magical 2009, what a year of wonder and beauty!
This is the year I've been waiting for. The year where I don't have anything to bitch complain or whine about. The year where I got my shit together and truly lived the life I wanted to live, be the man I want to be, and do it all without draining anyone else.
The decade... wow. It flew by. I understand that as we get old and look back on the years, our 20's are supposed to be that magical time where so much happened, the formative years where we get all the bullshit out of our systems and learn to become responsible adults. In some slow roundabout manner, I think I achieved that.
Most of the last decade was spent in a dysfunctional relationship where I drove myself to the limits of sanity, and became in some ways an absolute terror to those that were close to me. There exists only so much time for regret, and as I shared with a dear friend last night, we must move past mourning and learn to cherish that which has been formative for us.
I'm still learning how to be the best person I possibly can be, and 2009 provided me ample rewards for the efforts. I have a wonderful and fulfilling relationship with an amazingly beautiful, intelligent and caring woman. I have great friendships, both old and new, which provide me with the support of like-minded individuals. I have a budding career which is both financially and emotionally rewarding, and I have the flexibility to work on my terms. I took several vacations, including an epic road trip out West with my lover and one of my closest friends. I went skiing in the Rockies twice.
I gained new skills, and had the opportunity to work on a beautiful farm with Chelsey's family throughout the summer. They took me in like family, and have treated me like a valued part of that family. And to top it all off, I managed to buy a house, an actual honest to god house, where I can set my roots and grow outward.
I look back on the last decade and see so much happiness, so much pain, so many adventures and a great deal of adversity, and I want to scream out with joy and sorrow simultaneously. There are so many people I wish I could embrace and apologize to, and yet I hope that somehow the best apology I could offer is to live well and treat others with limitless kindness.
I still strive to seek balance, and am forever indebted to those of you who've helped to show me this. Limitless love.
-Bill
- now a day late and a dollar short!
2009... oh magical 2009, what a year of wonder and beauty!
This is the year I've been waiting for. The year where I don't have anything to bitch complain or whine about. The year where I got my shit together and truly lived the life I wanted to live, be the man I want to be, and do it all without draining anyone else.
The decade... wow. It flew by. I understand that as we get old and look back on the years, our 20's are supposed to be that magical time where so much happened, the formative years where we get all the bullshit out of our systems and learn to become responsible adults. In some slow roundabout manner, I think I achieved that.
Most of the last decade was spent in a dysfunctional relationship where I drove myself to the limits of sanity, and became in some ways an absolute terror to those that were close to me. There exists only so much time for regret, and as I shared with a dear friend last night, we must move past mourning and learn to cherish that which has been formative for us.
I'm still learning how to be the best person I possibly can be, and 2009 provided me ample rewards for the efforts. I have a wonderful and fulfilling relationship with an amazingly beautiful, intelligent and caring woman. I have great friendships, both old and new, which provide me with the support of like-minded individuals. I have a budding career which is both financially and emotionally rewarding, and I have the flexibility to work on my terms. I took several vacations, including an epic road trip out West with my lover and one of my closest friends. I went skiing in the Rockies twice.
I gained new skills, and had the opportunity to work on a beautiful farm with Chelsey's family throughout the summer. They took me in like family, and have treated me like a valued part of that family. And to top it all off, I managed to buy a house, an actual honest to god house, where I can set my roots and grow outward.
I look back on the last decade and see so much happiness, so much pain, so many adventures and a great deal of adversity, and I want to scream out with joy and sorrow simultaneously. There are so many people I wish I could embrace and apologize to, and yet I hope that somehow the best apology I could offer is to live well and treat others with limitless kindness.
I still strive to seek balance, and am forever indebted to those of you who've helped to show me this. Limitless love.
-Bill
